Thursday, October 13, 2005,
9:05 PM
leaving on a jetplane
i was so high last night and this morning, i have no clue why.
so high that i got up so many times at night and i got out of bed at 6 plus.
is that insane? and its a holiday.
anyway, i went out for lunch and walked around wasting time with ariel jon errol and alot of other guys. it was so odd cause stupid ariel came so late and the guy ratio : denise was like what 12 : 1. blah. i could have screamed.
and everyone was being mean to me.
teri where were you when i needed you most:( haha.
and yes, where was i when you needed me? well sorry. you know why. haha.
so yes, i ate with them then i met ming and went shopping for 3 hours.
and within that 3 hours all i bought was 2 presents.
singapore SUCKS so badly i wanna scream my head off.
like, i try all the clothes and NONE OF THEM FREAKING FIT ME i could just cry cause theyre all so pretty. quotes ming: topshop should have size zero for people like you.
BLAH I WANNA SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMM.
and besides that, singapore is so bloody boring. seriously, dont they know what FASHION is. gosh. no wonder my cupboard is incredibly empty.
i feel so sinful i could cry.
marc seah put a condom in my handbag. and i walked around with it for like almost 4 or 5 hours without knowing, and i came home and i didnt know what the hell it was. and i read it and i screamed.
and im traumatised
what am i supposed to do with it?! he wants it back to do it to some other girl again. blah. it feels terribly wrong.
anyway, i'm going down under tomorrow! woooohoooooo. i need to get away from singapore.
its only a half holiday. the holiday part will be over the weekend in sydney but the rest will be in school with my brother. going for lectures and all with him. how interesting right. those crucial days will help me decide if i wanna go there after Os. ah, the pressure.
im so exhausted from i have no clue what.
TO PIERCE MY EAR OR NOT TO PIERCE
no, i'll wait for vic! self control denise. self control.
so stop bugging me ming(: and everyone else! shoooo!
anyway, as the days go by i keep thinking more and more of how 2 faced this damned world is. its not bout me actually, but its people i know who talk bad bout other people, and those other people i know too talk bad bout the people referred to at the start.
like, isnt it more of like. if someone can do it to other people, he or she can do it to you too. ah. sigh.
what's wrong with this world.
if i could pick, i'd pick being a child all over again.
cause its the time when everything was really so innocent and fun and life felt so perfect (excluding the times my brothers ganged up against me)
and im talking nonsense all over again.
im feeling happy and sad at the same time. does that make sense.
anyway, off to aus tomorrow
bye everybody.
peace.
love
denise.
screw it.
